Have you ever had a hug from a stranger? I know that sounds moving, but most people don't really like them. I met this kid in high school. His name was Kaveh. Within in a few seconds of meeting this Joyce soul he hugged me. Keep in mind I grew up in unnamedhippietown and people there are pretty friendly. It might be all the vegan food or the amount of bike riding that takes place, but either way I wasn't surprised by the hug. What I was surprised by was the lack of self satisfaction. I don't think I've ever met someone who hugged me because they knew I needed it. He was a complete stranger, but he knew right away I needed a little physical comfort. He didn't get anything out of it. He didn't try to understand my situation. He didn't try to patronize me. Nothing was for him to keep.
I complement a friend in need because I think people never see themselves clearly.
I give money to homeless people because I believe whether you screwed up or were born into a bad situation, you don't deserve to starve.
I tutor people in chemistry and math because most of them just need a little confidence.
I don't just do it because I know I'm-- no-- someone was needed to fill a hole. I didn't do it because I happened to be there, because he needed a helping hand, or she needed a smile. I did it because in this world you need good credit. It's all about finances in life. If I do good I get to sleep at night. If I volunteer I get into college. If I be nice people will help me.
It's rare to find someone who didn't need to feel important
need to feel remembered
need to feel a connection in return
need someone to owe them
need something
I wish I needed nothing
I wish I could stand in one place just because It was necessary. I need to create that shadow of protection and shield that one human shaped patch because it was needed and nothing else. Naturally that does nothing for motivation. Nada
Motivation makes us hate, bully and fight. We do it to feel powerful and important. If you dislike someone quite frankly I don't give a damn. Most people have someone that would miss them if they were gone and therefore you've got no right to judge who deserves to be beneath you. If they commit some great wrong against you or a loved one or just humanity then by all means break all ties, Show your disapproval and fight until you free every last soul. But here's the catch to that: having a bad personality isn't a crime and it isn't your job to judge who gets that stamp on their forehead. Even the D&D kid has friends. Someone likes them. Just because you don't doesn't mean you have the right so squash them. Because then you're nothing but a bully and there's nothing I hate more than a bully. The world needs to stop thinking their opinion is the best and the one and only right way. Otherwise you end up with self righteous wars where the heart is in the right place, but the motivation is all wrong.
In high school I used to buy kids lunch because they "forgot" there's or because their lunch from home didn't fill them up. I used to spend all my money on another's needs until I had nothing for myself. I used to bring food from home for a girl whose dad had just lost his job. I would tell them not to worry because it wasn't too expensive and they would inevitably pay me back anyway. The circle of life would come full circle. My decision to starve wasn't because I thought I would get something out of my good deed. I just didn't want someone to starve. I get terrible headaches if I don't eat. The pain is so bad I feel like dying. If I could I'd make it so no one had to feel pain. Not like that.
If you had something to give wouldn't you?
If you could stop something bad from happening wouldn't you run until your legs gave out?
scream until your lungs burst?
fight until your hands bleed?
love until you stifled the hate
it sounds dorky and pathetic and cheesy. But isn't it time we changed our motivations? The word "selfless" has been contaminated and someone needs to crystalize it.
I just hope passion isn't a bad motivation.